Step aside

Don't want to be blinded by things...
That led me to a shallow mind descision.

Missing You

Jesus, You are the One
The only One
Let the healing water flow on me..

I Wanna Be

I wanna be like i used to be.
Lord, how i long to be near You
What i had in this world is nothing...
Help me to understand,
that life's worth living..
and in You i found everything.

Help me to worship You more,
to be grateful,
to be humble,
to be obidient
only to You.

These feelings i had confusing me so much.
I don't want it stirred my life,
so help me to be pure.
To the man i will love, Lord
Use me to help this man,
in his earthly life,
so i can trully be a woman You've created.

I miss You, Lord
and let it be this way.
In all my life, let it be this way.
I really miss You, O Son of God.
Lean on You is the least i can do...
I cannot tell how much my heart thirst for You
Just take this awful heart into Your dwelling place,
mold it as You want me to be,
crush so it will be pure like flowing water.

O, my Father, comforts me always
and rocks me in Your lap,
then i will live in peace.

Never been unloved..

Sometimes we run on a hopeless road
Where there's no end on the other side
We just go on and on
Never look back and sit awhile
We forget why we are here for
And we lose our mind on who we are instead
But we need to back off from those
Which took our sanity
Bring us to fake reality
We need to step aside and think
That it's time to turn around and see
Review all things that blow our mind
We think we lose our navigator
That he left us all alone
Painful and reckless

But we have to be alive
Don't give up now
Don't let go what we've got inside
HE never let us go
HE keeps us in HIS embrace
Hold our fingers in HIS gentle hands
Waiting for us to say
We are ready to hear HIM say
Yes I know your name
Every pray you've prayed
I'm the ONE who brought you to this place
The voice who sings to you
The hand that clings to you
O MY child, I've always known your name

We get some and we lose some
We hold it but somehow we have to let it go
We laugh yet we have to weep then
But GOD has created us so
That we are willing to follow
In whatever the cost will be
And be assured
That we are never been unloved

For Lulu, dearest friend

Empty

I feel so hopeless...
Feel i wanted to die.
O, Lord won't You help me please...
I'm runnin' on an endless road.
What's wrong with me...
Lord, won't You help me to stop?

These hours...

Trace the shape of my heart
Till it become more familiar to Your eyes
Take the place of my heart
Till i become a stranger to my life
I've been down without You
Wrong without Your love
It takes me days and nights to make me realize
In time will i be what You're thinking of?
Rescue me from hanging on this line
I won't give up on giving You the chance to blow my mind
I find You when i think i'm out of time.

in my heart....

Bapa, aku mengasihi Engkau.

Where are You?

I don't feel very well today. I don't know why, is it because the man? Or my family? Or the upcoming year? I'm not sure at all.
All i know is that i don't like this day. I just miss the old me, do all the thing i like.
I'm afraid i might losing something i really hope it'll come. I don't want to feel the same way like i used to.
Am i holding it too tight? Am i too ambitious?
O my Lord, i really don't know...

It's all grey in my eyes. I want to run away, from this reckless world.
It doesn't hurt to wait but it hurts to know that i won't have it all.
Lord, can You just erase me from my life?
So You can write it down again in my heart.

Is everything gonna be alright, Father?
Is everything gonna be alright?
Are You with me, Father?
Can You hold me close to You?
So i can cry my heart out, running to Your home.
Oh my Dwelling Place, i really want to see You.
Where are You?

Carry On

We cannot walk this road without HIM
We cannot do it alone
We were never meant to make it on our own
When the loads become too heavy
And our feet to tired to walk
HE will carry us and we'll be carry on.

Kita bukan siapa-siapa tanpa DIA...
We are absolutely NOTHING!

Come for me

Dear JESUS, when will i see You?
Can i say that i don't need anything but You?
Will it be a sin to leave my world like this?
Is not just a temporary feeling i had,
It's just a reflection of my eagerness to see You quickly.

Dear JESUS,
Will it hurt to wait for the man to come?
If it is, would You keep me from this feeling?
Let me live just to love You,
Let me live just to serve You.

Dear JESUS,
Come quickly, come quickly Lord.

Love Waits

Many times i caught him staring at me. I try to act normal but i think he often caught me too: STARING AT HIM. Hahaha....But i think we feel just alright. I think he likes to chat with me. When he take me to my friends house we talk a lot and it seems he's not what i assume he was. He is so attracting!!
Let it flow....When HE wants me to be with him then it'll be. Praise the Lord for all that HE does to me.

P.S: I think he knew i liked him. Oh well, what the heck! As long as we can keep it this way.
Love never in a rush, it waits.