Where are You?

I don't feel very well today. I don't know why, is it because the man? Or my family? Or the upcoming year? I'm not sure at all.
All i know is that i don't like this day. I just miss the old me, do all the thing i like.
I'm afraid i might losing something i really hope it'll come. I don't want to feel the same way like i used to.
Am i holding it too tight? Am i too ambitious?
O my Lord, i really don't know...

It's all grey in my eyes. I want to run away, from this reckless world.
It doesn't hurt to wait but it hurts to know that i won't have it all.
Lord, can You just erase me from my life?
So You can write it down again in my heart.

Is everything gonna be alright, Father?
Is everything gonna be alright?
Are You with me, Father?
Can You hold me close to You?
So i can cry my heart out, running to Your home.
Oh my Dwelling Place, i really want to see You.
Where are You?